Hello,
I wish I had something more to write but the fact remains that I haven't seen another profile. I feel completely normal mentally - I don't feel anxious and most days, I don't even think about it. Every once in a while, I will remember or be reminded that I am a surrogate in waiting (at which point, I get super excited) but I typically just live my normal life.
I am constructing a 5-tier wedding cake next month and will be doing a test run in the next couple of weeks (so, if anyone wants cake...!). I will be baking 200 scones for a Christmas tea. And I will be baking 400 cake balls for a soft opening party.
Things like that keep me and my mind quite busy.
Hope to update you soon!
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Monday, September 23, 2013
Changing weather
We received our first profile. It was a very exciting time for us (me especially). It really continues to amaze me - how quickly this whole process can happen.
We read through it multiple times and discussed a lot. We had conversations and meetings. We took the whole weekend to decide how we were going to proceed. When it came down to it, this profile just didn't seem perfect for us. We will patiently await other profiles. I really didn't think the first profile would be "the one" anyway.
On a side note, I am having a real itch to be pregnant again! It must be the time of year. The smell in the air. Trying to not let this cloud my judgement. I am so thankful to have Phil by my side - helping me along.
A second side note. Next spring, I am going to plant pumpkins. Once October hits, I'm going to have a fall festival with all the neighbor kids. I'm going to bake cupcake pies, there will be games, we will make caramel apples, and the kids will each get to pick a pumpkin from the garden and bring it home to carve.
It's always been a dream of mine to own a pumpkin patch - who says it can't be in a city backyard?!
Ciao!!!
We read through it multiple times and discussed a lot. We had conversations and meetings. We took the whole weekend to decide how we were going to proceed. When it came down to it, this profile just didn't seem perfect for us. We will patiently await other profiles. I really didn't think the first profile would be "the one" anyway.
On a side note, I am having a real itch to be pregnant again! It must be the time of year. The smell in the air. Trying to not let this cloud my judgement. I am so thankful to have Phil by my side - helping me along.
A second side note. Next spring, I am going to plant pumpkins. Once October hits, I'm going to have a fall festival with all the neighbor kids. I'm going to bake cupcake pies, there will be games, we will make caramel apples, and the kids will each get to pick a pumpkin from the garden and bring it home to carve.
It's always been a dream of mine to own a pumpkin patch - who says it can't be in a city backyard?!
Ciao!!!
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Today
It's kind of funny how things work. Phil and I have been talking about this process for nearly two years. I started my blog a couple months ago and showed it to people who were interested in reading about my life.
Today. Today of all days. I decided today would be a good day to make it public. To post it on social media. To let all people read about this personal experience that our family is going through.
Today I received my first profile. A profile to look through. To look through to see if I would be interested in carrying someone's baby.
Today I am excited. Excited to go home and talk to Phil. Excited to leave the profile with him while I'm at a meeting at church. Excited to hear his thoughts when I get home.
Today.
Today. Today of all days. I decided today would be a good day to make it public. To post it on social media. To let all people read about this personal experience that our family is going through.
Today I received my first profile. A profile to look through. To look through to see if I would be interested in carrying someone's baby.
Today I am excited. Excited to go home and talk to Phil. Excited to leave the profile with him while I'm at a meeting at church. Excited to hear his thoughts when I get home.
Today.
"All we need..."
I got an email this morning saying the agency has all they need. Now, I continue to wait to be matched - I know the perfect Intended Parents are out there for me. I'm feeling excited!
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
My other life
We're kind of at a stand still at the moment. We are waiting to be matched. Currently, I'm okay with this stand still.
It is late August. My favorite time of year - the Minnesota State Fair. It's also the time of year to extract honey.
OH yeah, along with my introduction post, I should have told you a little more about myself. I have 2 hobbies. I am a beekeeper in the summer and very recently, I've turned my other hobby (baking) into a business. I won't get too in depth, but I love them both.
Beekeeping: I first started out when my dad's friend told me he has been keeping bees for many years. I thought, "hmm, sounds fun... I've never tried that. I probably should." I'm in my fourth year now and am completely hooked. I love it all - even my battle wounds. Up until this year, I have had a mentor. He's still around, when needed. I think I'm doing OK... there are a lot of bees and honey!
Baking: My true love. It relaxes me. I enjoy trying new recipes. I like hearing people say how delicious it all tastes. Do I like it as a job? Not so sure yet. I feel anxious when someone pays me for something I made. I worry whether or not they will like it. I worry whether or not I will get an angry call or email. I'm fragile in that aspect.
Along with my hobbies, I have a full-time job, my husband and I raise two kids and a dog, and our house is always under construction (currently the kitchen).
I'd love to be matched with a couple soon. But for now, I am OK with this stand still.
It is late August. My favorite time of year - the Minnesota State Fair. It's also the time of year to extract honey.
OH yeah, along with my introduction post, I should have told you a little more about myself. I have 2 hobbies. I am a beekeeper in the summer and very recently, I've turned my other hobby (baking) into a business. I won't get too in depth, but I love them both.
Beekeeping: I first started out when my dad's friend told me he has been keeping bees for many years. I thought, "hmm, sounds fun... I've never tried that. I probably should." I'm in my fourth year now and am completely hooked. I love it all - even my battle wounds. Up until this year, I have had a mentor. He's still around, when needed. I think I'm doing OK... there are a lot of bees and honey!
Baking: My true love. It relaxes me. I enjoy trying new recipes. I like hearing people say how delicious it all tastes. Do I like it as a job? Not so sure yet. I feel anxious when someone pays me for something I made. I worry whether or not they will like it. I worry whether or not I will get an angry call or email. I'm fragile in that aspect.
Along with my hobbies, I have a full-time job, my husband and I raise two kids and a dog, and our house is always under construction (currently the kitchen).
I'd love to be matched with a couple soon. But for now, I am OK with this stand still.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Bump
My insurance has been reviewed. I do not have coverage to be a surrogate mother. Very bummed. The agency still thinks they will be able to match me with someone. It just might take longer than they had originally hoped as they have to find someone willing to pay insurance coverage for me on top of the medical bills and delivery.
Time isn't an issue for me. I am 27 years old. I have had two c-sections. I have two kids. According to surrogacy law, a surrogate mother cannot have more than three c-sections. In my eyes, this will be my last pregnancy. Time is not an issue.
A bump in the road. Not the end. Just stalled until someone picks up this lone hitchhiker...
Time isn't an issue for me. I am 27 years old. I have had two c-sections. I have two kids. According to surrogacy law, a surrogate mother cannot have more than three c-sections. In my eyes, this will be my last pregnancy. Time is not an issue.
A bump in the road. Not the end. Just stalled until someone picks up this lone hitchhiker...
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Why?
Why do I want to be a surrogate mother?
It started out as a selfish thought:: I am done having kids but I want to be pregnant again. I feel great when I'm pregnant. I like having a baby grow inside of me. I love being pregnant. Me, me, ME!
Surrogacy. I can be pregnant but not have a child of my own. Perfect.
People. Some people can't have kids. I love my kids. They make me happy. They make me sad. They bring out a love in me I didn't know I had. They make me feel complete.
Everyone who wants to, should feel that way. Everyone.
Why do I want to be a surrogate mother?
To give the joy of having kids to people who are physically unable to. To give someone else the sense of completeness I have. To bring a beautiful life into this world.
It started out as a selfish thought:: I am done having kids but I want to be pregnant again. I feel great when I'm pregnant. I like having a baby grow inside of me. I love being pregnant. Me, me, ME!
Surrogacy. I can be pregnant but not have a child of my own. Perfect.
People. Some people can't have kids. I love my kids. They make me happy. They make me sad. They bring out a love in me I didn't know I had. They make me feel complete.
Everyone who wants to, should feel that way. Everyone.
Why do I want to be a surrogate mother?
To give the joy of having kids to people who are physically unable to. To give someone else the sense of completeness I have. To bring a beautiful life into this world.
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